My 2009 Top 3 MSN-er Award o_o!

I spent quite some of my online time at MSN. Honestly, I don really have alot of friend in my MSN friend-list since most of my college mate tends to use YM rather than msn. Out from 85 people, I only chat actively with less than 10 people T_T

So here is my top 3 MSN chatter for every month thorough 2009 (yeah.. I never delete my chat logs -_-)

January
1. JC
2. YX aka kiddo ("jk")
3. Cocobi aka my sis -.-

February
1. Jimmy aka ultima
2. JC
3. Lec

March
1. Jimmy
2. JC
3. Cocobi

April
1. JC
2. Jimmy
3. Kiddo

May
1. JC
2. Lec
3. Nanako (she going to conquer soon)

June
1. Jimmy
2. Nanako
3. JC

July
1. JC
2. Nanako
3. Cocobi

August
1. JC
2. Nanako
3. Cocobi

September
1. JC
2. Nanako
3. Cocobi

October
1. JC
2. Nanako
3. Cocobi

November
1. Nanako
2. JC
3. Cocobi

December
1. Nanako
2. JC
3. Cocobi

So its clearly that my overall top 3 for 2009 are~~~
=+=+=+=+=+=+=+=+=+=+=+=+=+=+
Dear dear, Nanako and Cocobi
=+=+=+=+=+=+=+=+=+=+=+=+=+=+

thats all! see you on My 2010 Top 3 MSN Award. lol

What should I do?

After I lost my battle, now I need to rise back. But I dunno where should I start? My main concern now is money, so yeah.. I need a job first before I can get into next intake. I wish my dad could help me but now he's busying trying to place my bro and my sis into a good school, and leaving me in the dark. The darkness that actually was started by him, because he the one who responsible in directing what thing should i take so i can be a doctor (which will never happen) but end up I became a failure product which only hold a microbiology diploma. I know he just want for the best, and it is my fault also for not trying to the max. I wonder what will happen if I just proceed with the things that I like few years ago. Instead of become a science student, I actually love something that relates with in-decor designing, indoor designing or whatever it is because I just love to see those pretty indoor decoration or pretty things. Oh well..everyone does but I do believe that I have some sort of talent in judging what thing is pretty, stylish etc and wad is not. Yeah you can laugh at me.. But being told by friends or others about my good taste or choice in various stuff isnt a first or second time, but indeed is many many times. And whenever I go to any place with some nice decor style i will keep saying my opinion, like what colors should they put or what type of furniture wadsoever, cos I just love it and it somehow make me a little bit spirited. But despite of that I still have a messy room -.- Oh..but there is still a reason why it is messy. First, Im sharing room with my sis, second, this room is too small for 2 young girls like us, and third all the furniture werent choosen by ME, so I got no heart to decor it plus with those overload stuff bursting everywhere. Yeah..I just dont like to work with somthing that I dont like!

Ok, I went far from the topic already. So what should I do now? Find a job, grab some money, see if I manage to get into the next intake, or if i failed, I'll just continue to work gaining experience with my small diploma, hoping with it I can still be a someone like Lim Goh Tong. Is that possible?

Bald?

recently see my hair is everywhere on the floor. it really freak me off. I dont wan to become bald yet..No, I dun wan to become bald at anytime! Ah.. I should stop using the Head and Shoulder shampoo. Realized that my hair fall become worst after I finished my Dove shampoo and use the H n S. Hmm..wonder what shampoo should i splurge on now.
Any idea?

Backing off..

This month is such a sucky month. I got my 1st semester result and its really bad, so I decided to step off. At first I do feel very sad, yeah..loosing to frens, lost my chance to get loan, wasted my 1 semester time, but now I think it might be a good thing. Well its better lost it now when it still in early stage rather than fall down when you already climbing half route of ladder which will certainly cause more injure. Taking a physic major for your BSc when you are from a biology major course in diploma which was only having pre-calculus and basic statistic as its only calculation subject, is not easy, especially for people like me who not adoring the "magic" of calculations.

So yeah.. Maybe I lost the RM3k loan per 6 month, but maybe later I will earn more than RM3k per month. Maybe I look such a loser to my friend now, but who knows I still can win in the future. Maybe I lost 1 year of time due to my decision but its better than continue something that you dont like for years till eventually you get old and regret it thorough your entire life.

So, goodbye BSc (Hons) Material Technology. You not for me neither Im for you. For some people maybe you can laugh at me, but remember the sky isnt always bright. And thanks for people who supporting me during my glooomy day. You know who are you =)

If I could turn back time..

I will..
1. Ask my parent not to make me used to eating fast food at home for dinner since I was in primary school, so I wont be as fat as I am now.
2. Not to read Enid Blyton books in the dark before sleep when I was in primary which had caused me to wear spectacles at such an early age of 8.
3. Mix more with friends so Im not having a dificulties to socialize like Im having now.
4. Not ignoring some of my friends when I was in school. I lost some of my "ex-bestfriends"
5. Not spend quite some of my money on voting Vick Malaysian Idol. (LOL)
6. Study harder for my SPM.
7. Put a cover on my 1st hamster's container instead of leaving it open air. He was MIA when I was on 5 day trip to Cameron Highland.
8. Never start playing online game after SPM.
9. Stop my parent from get into trap of a "jurujual langsung" (We lost a lot)
10. Brushed up my english especially speaking skill.
11. Never get addicted to Maple Story
12. Never know this person from the game, he took a lot of my precious time as well as some money for "a cash" (I was stupid)
12. Study harder for my diploma.
13. Never spend all my money recklessly on music stuff
14. Never include "Material Technology" among my degree choosing course list.
15. Never need to wrote this list.