What should I do?

After I lost my battle, now I need to rise back. But I dunno where should I start? My main concern now is money, so yeah.. I need a job first before I can get into next intake. I wish my dad could help me but now he's busying trying to place my bro and my sis into a good school, and leaving me in the dark. The darkness that actually was started by him, because he the one who responsible in directing what thing should i take so i can be a doctor (which will never happen) but end up I became a failure product which only hold a microbiology diploma. I know he just want for the best, and it is my fault also for not trying to the max. I wonder what will happen if I just proceed with the things that I like few years ago. Instead of become a science student, I actually love something that relates with in-decor designing, indoor designing or whatever it is because I just love to see those pretty indoor decoration or pretty things. Oh well..everyone does but I do believe that I have some sort of talent in judging what thing is pretty, stylish etc and wad is not. Yeah you can laugh at me.. But being told by friends or others about my good taste or choice in various stuff isnt a first or second time, but indeed is many many times. And whenever I go to any place with some nice decor style i will keep saying my opinion, like what colors should they put or what type of furniture wadsoever, cos I just love it and it somehow make me a little bit spirited. But despite of that I still have a messy room -.- Oh..but there is still a reason why it is messy. First, Im sharing room with my sis, second, this room is too small for 2 young girls like us, and third all the furniture werent choosen by ME, so I got no heart to decor it plus with those overload stuff bursting everywhere. Yeah..I just dont like to work with somthing that I dont like!

Ok, I went far from the topic already. So what should I do now? Find a job, grab some money, see if I manage to get into the next intake, or if i failed, I'll just continue to work gaining experience with my small diploma, hoping with it I can still be a someone like Lim Goh Tong. Is that possible?

Bald?

recently see my hair is everywhere on the floor. it really freak me off. I dont wan to become bald yet..No, I dun wan to become bald at anytime! Ah.. I should stop using the Head and Shoulder shampoo. Realized that my hair fall become worst after I finished my Dove shampoo and use the H n S. Hmm..wonder what shampoo should i splurge on now.
Any idea?

Backing off..

This month is such a sucky month. I got my 1st semester result and its really bad, so I decided to step off. At first I do feel very sad, yeah..loosing to frens, lost my chance to get loan, wasted my 1 semester time, but now I think it might be a good thing. Well its better lost it now when it still in early stage rather than fall down when you already climbing half route of ladder which will certainly cause more injure. Taking a physic major for your BSc when you are from a biology major course in diploma which was only having pre-calculus and basic statistic as its only calculation subject, is not easy, especially for people like me who not adoring the "magic" of calculations.

So yeah.. Maybe I lost the RM3k loan per 6 month, but maybe later I will earn more than RM3k per month. Maybe I look such a loser to my friend now, but who knows I still can win in the future. Maybe I lost 1 year of time due to my decision but its better than continue something that you dont like for years till eventually you get old and regret it thorough your entire life.

So, goodbye BSc (Hons) Material Technology. You not for me neither Im for you. For some people maybe you can laugh at me, but remember the sky isnt always bright. And thanks for people who supporting me during my glooomy day. You know who are you =)

If I could turn back time..

I will..
1. Ask my parent not to make me used to eating fast food at home for dinner since I was in primary school, so I wont be as fat as I am now.
2. Not to read Enid Blyton books in the dark before sleep when I was in primary which had caused me to wear spectacles at such an early age of 8.
3. Mix more with friends so Im not having a dificulties to socialize like Im having now.
4. Not ignoring some of my friends when I was in school. I lost some of my "ex-bestfriends"
5. Not spend quite some of my money on voting Vick Malaysian Idol. (LOL)
6. Study harder for my SPM.
7. Put a cover on my 1st hamster's container instead of leaving it open air. He was MIA when I was on 5 day trip to Cameron Highland.
8. Never start playing online game after SPM.
9. Stop my parent from get into trap of a "jurujual langsung" (We lost a lot)
10. Brushed up my english especially speaking skill.
11. Never get addicted to Maple Story
12. Never know this person from the game, he took a lot of my precious time as well as some money for "a cash" (I was stupid)
12. Study harder for my diploma.
13. Never spend all my money recklessly on music stuff
14. Never include "Material Technology" among my degree choosing course list.
15. Never need to wrote this list.

Drama Review: Zettai Kareshi (Spoilers alert!!)

I got this j-dorama from my friend, she really have a lot of japan drama >.<

Before I continue, this review might contain spoilers so any anti spoiler you can just not read it.

This drama consist of 11 episode and is adapted from manga "Zettai Kareshi" or in english, Absolute Boyfriend. People reviewed that the manga version and drama version is way too different in their story line, but I watch the drama 1st before read the manga and I found out the drama is quite good even different from the original story line ^^

So here's some review. This drama is about a young woman, Rikko who always got rejected by boys since she was in school. She was always descri One day she met a scientist named Namikiri by co-incidence and he said he will change her love life. The scientist brought Rikko to a company named Kronos Heaven and gave her to answer a set of question about an ideal boyfriend. Rikko without thinking further just answered the questions thinking that it just some sort of normal survey. After that she just left the company.

By the next day, a huge parcel came to her house. And when she opened it her "ideal boyfriend" is inside!! Its a human look-alike robot >.< Since that, Rikko's life changed, living with robot who always said "I love you" all the time, cleaning the house, cook for her, doing house chores but sleep in toilet everyday. Rikko even named the robot as Tenjo Night, a knight who always protecting her.

Rikko treated Night more to "house appliance" since it just a robot. Meanwhile Night, being a first series of love robot encountered several error while on his way protecting Rikko and the error somehow caused Night to developed real human feelings instead of just a programmed robot. And its slowly has captured Rikko's heart. But at the same time, Rikko's boss, Soushi also has a feeling towards her, which put Rikko in dilemma position.

Rikko who really fond of man's love started to fall in love with her boss due to that they always spent time together working on new sweet (they work in sweet company). Night aware of that, but still try his best to accommodate Rikko and give all his love as an ideal boyfriend. One day, Night saved Rikko from being hit by a car and "injured" him self badly, which caused him for a major repair. Since that Rikko caught her eye on Night while at the same time hold her feeling towards his boss.

After Night was repaired, Rikko start to treat him better which make Night feel very happy. However day by day Night keep encounter function error since his major repairment. At the same time Soushi confessed his feeling to Rikko and Rikko said she have the same felling too.
And also at the same time, both of them were offered for sweet making training in Paris for 3 years, and planned to go together. But going to Paris with Soushi means she must left Night alone in Japan.

Night who knows about the plan willing to let Rikko go to Paris for the sake of her dream to become patstisizer. Rikko are pleased with Night willingness to let her go to Paris. At the same time Kronos Heaven plan to disposed Night since they considere it as a faulty product for having a human feelings. They came to collect Night on the day Rikko going to depart to Paris and said it just for a maintainnance. Rikko who never suspect of anything just let the company took Night for the "repair". However, Namikiri who was eventually being suspended for being protective to his robot night, managed to escape and called Rikko about the real situation. Rikko ran quickly to the Kronos Heaven and told Soushi she cant leave Night. She managed to save Night from being terminated.

Rikko finally realized how Night is important to her, and decided to live her life together with Night. However, Night chip system become weaker due to a lot of battle that he already going through and eventually he was going to die. Knowing of his fate, Night wrote a letter to Soushi to take care of his girlfriend when he gone. During his last period of life time, Night spent his time with Rikko by dating, and having party with their collegue. Rikko even gave Night a knitted mufler on the last day they were together. During the final night when Rikko was sleeping, Night kissed Rikko for a last time, leave the house and find his inventor, Namikiri. Night finally ceased functionning infront of Namikiri and the last word he said was "Rikko" while looking at the knitted mufler.

The next day, Rikko woke up and finding Night is not around. Namikiri came to her house explained what happened to Night, which burst Rikko into tears. Namikiri then handed the main chip of Night which contain last message from Night, telling her do not cry and live happy achieving her dream. He will watch from above. Following the last message from Night, Rikko followed Soushi to Paris in order to achieve her dream.

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Isnt the story sweet, even it has a really sad ending T_T

How I wish I have a zettai kareshi who always protect me, say sweet things to me and at the same time really mean it, always try his best to make me happy, never hurt me, and accept me for who I am.

Kya~ (o>.

Happy Birthday to.......ME!!

Its my birthday~ and starting from today Im 22 years old T_T. Omg I feel like Im getting old. T_T.. Most people usually will feel very happy when there comes their birthday for some reasons. For me, my birthday means Im getting old by 1 year, but the actual things that make me happy is to see how many birthday wish that I will get and of course ...present!!(well..if any)

So I would like to thank to these lovely people who wished me a happy birthday ~!

(from the 1st to the next after that)

Kismet (she never failed to wish me a happy birthday, again this year she is the 1st ^_^)
Kelvin (you save it in ur hp izzit? =P)
Jaycee (<3 I wish you can sing a birthday song for me ~)
Mum (the one who gave birth)
Dad (the one who responsibble =x)
Dom (unexpected >.<)
Siti Hajar ( Luv her so much ^_^ I miss the old time when we were a classmate)
Nanako ( thanks to facebook, jk =P)
Jun (thanks~)

hope the list will keep go on and on >.<

Siti said she wan to belanja me makan this weekend (yay~~) and someone from the list (who? secret..secret.. =p) said want to give me something. Im so happy !! ^o^

Anyways, I hope I will become a better person after this. Better and always better =)

What have I did this Raya?

My Raya holiday going to end in less than 24 hours sobs..
So in the last 1 week holiday, what the things that I've done?

*shopping (this is a routine, at least once in a month)
*onlining (most of the time)
*studying (not most of the time)
*staying up late everyday (doing what?)
*tidy up my messy room (and it get mess again very fast after that)
*beraya (only at my own house -.-)

Why only at my own house, becos my dad wasnt around till the 4th hari raya, and when he back my mum already got no mood to go anywhere -.-, and that makes this Raya is the most boring raya that I ever had since 22 years. lol. And got 1 more record too, this year I only got 1 "duit raya" which is from my mum.

So now, what awaits me after this holiday end?
* 4 tests
* 1 project submission
* 16 lab report submission
* and of course back to my everyday class day routine, a long walk over hills and lots of
lader to class (cos the damn bus cannot make a stop at my hostel, I dunno I pay transportation
fee for wad =____= )

and being off topic a bit, how was my new banner? ^_^ applelicious?